i will never understand why i ended up this way or what the reason was for . i'll never understand why this world is so fucked up and barely anyone cares . i'll never understand how people can say they love someone then leave them for someone else . i'll never understand a lot of things , like why people lie , cheat and steal . why they are rude , mean , bitchy , horrible and inconsiderate . i'll never understand how pain never goes away . i'll never understand love or hate . i will never understand life :( 

 

It sucks , you know . When everything is doing fine then , it all crashes again ?  And the worst part is , I really dont want to try and put it all back together again , but i have to ..

In the end , you will see who's fake , who's true and who would risk it all just for you ..

"I want to be his favourite hello and his hardest goodbye .... "

Everyone says that love hurts , but thats not true . Loneliness hurts , rejection hurts , losing someone hurts . Everyone confuses these with love but in reality - Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain , and makes us feel wonderful again .

At least i know what love is . Like clouds love the sky , ocean loves sand , winter loves snow , snow loves breeze , it's all connected . It's called unconditional love . It's in our heart <3

I want someone who knows that i am not really perfect yet stares at me like i'm most perfect woman he has ever seen :)

I Thanks God for this relationship. No one else would understand us . And no one else in this world would understand me the way you do . Thanks you for being my partner , spouse , lover and friend. 2 months ♥

 We've had our ups and downs, this we both know, through it all our love still managed to grow .

Different thoughts we had about many things, but our love for each other, had no attached strings . I love you ...

Never blame any day in your life . Good days give you happiness . Bad days give you experience . Worst day give you a lesson ..

Life is going to throw you so many obstacles to overcome . some are going to be easier than others, some will leave you happy and some will kill you deep inside . but no matter what happens in the end, it’ll always bring along more and more obstacles to face . You just have to stand tall, hold your head high and just take whatever life brings to you .

The main thing I learned ? if you aren’t willing to put up with a little pain, you won’t go far . With every journey you’ll get scratches and bruises, but if you really love it, those scratches will be worth it and you wouldn’t really notice them because you take the pain with the joy .

The important thing is not to bitter over life’s disappointments . Learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won’t be sunny . And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home :)

"Suddenly i feel happy . And you may just be a reason for this ."

Far too often we depend on others to make us happy, when really all we have to do is look in the mirror and realize happiness starts within ourselves.

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.  And she‘ll be okay. She really will. She’s tough…and She deserve to be happy.

You’re the only person with the ability to make me smile without even trying. I want you to know that I am so very grateful for you. I’m so grateful for all the wonderful memories we have shared: all the smiles and the laughters. You light up my world and show me things I never dreamed I’d see. Thank you for all that you do for me and all that you have given me. thank you for being you.

Just thinking of you , brings a smile to my face :) :)

Maybe it's the way you grab my hand and hold it or the way you kiss me, or maybe it's the way you let me put my arms around you.  Maybe it's the way you look at me and your smile just makes me melt.  Maybe it's the way we can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing, but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my whole life.  Maybe it's the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how much you hold me up on a pedestal.  Maybe that's it...that makes me want to be with you so bad.

I'm not perfect but i swear , i'm perfect for you ;)

 alhamdulillah , it moves smoothly . His mother blessing our relationship . His family knew me as his girlfriend and my mom also knew him as my boyfriend :) . this bring happiness to us . 

thanks mama and mom . i love both of you .

When i saw you , i fell in love . And you smiled because you knew ..

MY HEART IS PERFECT BECAUSE YOU ARE INSIDE ;)

Sometimes you must to accept what done is done ..

Assalamualaikum semua . dah lame rasenye tak update blog .heeee , sibuk ngan homework laa . banyak gile ! nasib baik boleh siapkan jugakk . hihihi ..

Oh yaa , hari selasa . papa Farrez meninggal . Innalillahwainnalillahhirojiunnn . Kesian kat dia and family dia . Saya turut bersimpati . Harap2 dia dapat menjalani hidupnya dengan lebih tabah dan kuat . I know that my boy is a strong guy ;) . I hope you can be a responsible boy towards on . sebab awak sorang je laki lam keluarga awak . awak kene jage mama awk leklok . awak pun kene study hard . awak dah kene start stop smoking for your health sygg . i will pray all the best for you hubby . hope that you will never give up . hope that you can faces all the dificulties later on . i will always support you and always be beside you ;)

sometimes , you will feel alone . yeahh , i have get used with this situation . you will feel lonely because you have lost the person that you love most . but everybody will go away . so that , we just can pray to God . Sayang , how lonely is you feel , i always be beside you . always love you and always miss you . i never thought that i will leave you cause i really dont want to leave you . Loving you can make me feel more happier . 

Start today , you must be a stronger guy . Okay sayangg ?  Loveyou :)


-Semoga Dato' Othman dirahmati Allah dan ditempatkan dalam golongan orang2 yang beriman . Amin . Al-Fatihah :)

Imagine !

WHEN A GIRL LEAVES , YOU DONT LET HER WALK AWAY !

- you run the fuck after her and pour your heart out on the pavement . you have to tell her all the reasons you love her , and you gotta mean every word of it . you better kiss her like you have never kissed before and hold her in your arms like you are protecting the world , because she is your world . fight for her . dont let her go . because once she walks out on you , there will be nothing more you can do . and let me tell you boy , YOU WILL REGRET IT ...

No matter what happens the right people will always find a way to stand on your LIFE :)

In life , you will realize that there is a purpose for everybody you meet . Some are there to test you , some will use you , some will teach you , and some will bring out the best in you ..

There's always that one special person that no matter what they have done to you , you still just cant let them go ..

A girl , no matter how many times she denies it ,  she will always remember every detail , every moment , every piece of the memories you have left her . No matter how much she tries to forget , it will always be there ..

- Maybe you dont need the whole world to love you , you know , maybe you just need one person .

No matter how strong a girl is , she has a weak point . And sometimes , all she need is a hug :)

There's that one type of hug that a girl loves . You know , that tight hug where you put some srength into it , using both your arms , not just one . The one where a girl could bury her face in a guy's chest , that makes her feel sad and secure , that makes her feel warm on the outside and inside , that makes her feel wanted , the one that lasts for awhile , the one that would give her the impression that you care ..

When someone walks into your life , makes you a better person , and causes you to forget about your past , ever let go of them ..

you know what ? make your girl feel special , like she's the only girl in your life , the only girl you ever wanted , and the only girl you wouldnt wanna loose . Not your number one , but your ONLY ONE . Tell her she's beautiful everyday even if she feels she isn't . Sing to her until she falls asleep , even if your voice doesn't sound good . Send her sweet good morning text messages . Give her your everything , your shoulder to cry on , to lean on . Make her feel like she's your girlfriend and bestfriend at the same time . Treat her like a princess , like a queen . She deserve it :)

I'm not a perfect Girlfriend ..

I will yell at you . I will get jealous . I am stubborn . I over think . I get insecure . My moods are like a roller coaster . I will rarely listen to you , and I will never do anything right . But I promise you , that if I give you my heart it's yours . Keep it ! I will be loyal . I will be here when you need me . I will love you to the greatest extend i can . I will treat you right and I will do anything I can to hold our relationship together :)

"dont leave something good to find something better . once you realize you had the best , the bet has found better ."

Sometimes you will never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory ..

A girl , no matter how many times she denies it , she will always remember every detail , every moment , every piece of the memories you have left her . No matter how much she tries to forget , it will always be there .

SO MUCH PAIN FOR SOMEONE SO YOUNG .

 Sometimes in bed , I start thinking a lot . Then I end up crying myself to sleep after realizing how lonely I am ..

If you get closer to me , I get clingy . Really clingy . I dont even know what to say but I want to talk to you ..

You dont write because you want to say something , you write because you have something to say .

MY DREAM ...

 -They say that love is forever . Your forever is all that I need .

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter dont mind , and those that mind , dont matter ".

You make me special Again ♥

Sayang . You bring a lot of happiness in my life .

I would give anything in the world to be there . To make you smile . To kiss you softly . To tell you everything will be okay . Even I always hurt you , always make you sad , I always do to love you . I dont care you not perfect . What i care is , I want you to love me , to miss me , to accept me for who i am . Because , I really scared of losing you . I really dont think you realize how much better my life is with you in it . I just hope you dont leave me like other guys do to me before this . Please know that I LOVE YOU with my sincere ..
-Farrez Isman-

Life Is Full of Beauty . Notice It !

- 24/12/11 -

" I finally understood what true  Love Meant ..

Love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own , no matter how painful the choices you face might be . "

Love me for Who Am I ...

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The greatest gift you can give to somebody is your own personal development .

I used to say , 'If you will take care of me , I will take care of you ' .

Now I say , 'I will take care of you , If you will take care of you for me ' .

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Dear My Love , 

You are not perfect . You are not handsome . You are weird . But . Thats okay . I'm like that too . We laugh at the randomest things . You know my ugliest side . Even though we disagree sometimes , we never fight . When I'm sad , you were always there to make sure I'm okay . Thanks for being there for me .

ILOVEYOU whoever you are ..

I like you today , I love you tomorrow , I wanna be with you in the future ;)

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Dear Boy ,

I'm sorry that sometimes , I get a little jealous , thinking that someone else could make you more happier that i could . But . I'm happy enough being beside you . I love the way you are . I love the way you laughter . I love the way you make some jokes . I love the way you treat my friends as your friends too . I love the way you understand me . I love the way you cared about me . I love the way you sulk with me . And I love all about you Sayang :)

You Always In My Mind , Love ...